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Well I like many other women have struggeled with my weight for a couple year now. I was no skinny kid an since being 11 have gained weight over the years which brought my weight at its highest last year 18 half stone. I have been on every diet going. I have researced failed succeeded many times. I have come to realise that I have gained serios weight since my grandad PADDY passed away an then a year on my uncle TOM. Who both I loved more than anything. The other night i had a dream about my grandad and to cut it short in the dream they wanted to take him away an I made excuses. I would not let go of him. That made me realise I never realy have an still aint willing to I would hold onto him a life time. An its played on my mind the only time I bin to the grave was for the funerals. They are gone about 4 an 5 year now. It seems like 6 months ago. I dont know what to do with this but I think its helped me on my journy just realiseing the actual point. An I think this eating yes I ate before they died alot an had weight on but not to the point since they gone. Another thing i have realised is that every single one of us know if we eat less an exercise do whats best suits us we can loose weight we know how to keep it off as well its all in us. Not only have I not worked hard enough to loose the weight an wanted it bad enough I have done this is every goal of my life I have had a list of goals I have wanted to do this past few years as in get my driving licence, get very tanned,loose the weight,be healthy,live my life to the full,be 100percent an give 100per cent in my partnership or be out of it,  find a career I love. I havent got all this because the truth is I havnt wanted it enough an worked a it enough. Dreams are only dreams because we never got off our asses an made them reality. But I want to do it. LIFE is so SHORT an I know if my grandad was here he wud tell me to go get everything I want he might not be here in person but hes with me every day an I guess sometimes you gotta stop talking about  what you want an grab it make it your reality x

I feel like iam in a loseing battle i have bin dieting this pass 6 year lost regained lost got on a diet broke a diet followed life changes healthy eating even broke them. Iam begining to get a very bad obsession with diets i wake up in the middle of the night thinking which one is the best for me to go on same all day yet i cant stick to even healthy eating for 2 days without having a mcdonalds HELP people. It is becoming an obsession all i ever wanted was this weight off 6 half stone to lose my head is messed up

Well from my last blog you will know I have just had my gallbladder taking out after a few months of stress pain an gaining weight i previosly lost on lighter life diet. This has bin one of the most challengeing months an times of my life. Me being ill needle,surgerey,being put asleep it was hell. But thank god its  over an GOD was by my side. Now Iam slowly healing. We are goin on holiday either in october or for christmas to tenerife me an my partner so that gives me 7 to 10 months to loose this weight iam around 16half to 17 stone i will know thursday when i weigh in at slimming world. I want to at least be 12 stone but my true goal is 9.7stone. So Iam asking all dieters success stories i know thier is no fast fix an I dont want one but any tips an advice anything you know an have learned please tell i would be gratefullthanks all xx

Went in to hospital tuesday for gallbladder removal.I was terrified needles,more needles,then went down had the operation i was crying the lot.But I had it done didnt give in.After the operation was sore very sensitive im still recovering  slowly but surly. Thank God he was with me through it all. I have not ate any junk food since an have just been eating 3 meals a day. This has realy made me think on my health an how much it means. I rang the women in slimming world an told her i willbe back next thursday to weigh in an restart slimming world. Iam going to loose this weight slowly but surely an most importantly in  a healthy way

Well i just want to know how people have lost weight an what they have had success at. I myself have yo yo dieted my way on lipotrim,lighterlife,starvation diets but never grasped how to keep it all over with in a few months i gain it back. I am well was an all or notting person but somthing has clicked in me an realised to me yo yo diets dont work so what do. I have been thinking about slimming world looseing it but can i even lose 7 stone on slimming world an exercise help me please people thanks

Well I have been up an down one week iam on a diet next week I eat all round me these gallstones aint helped but I am getting them sorted. Was talking to a friend lat night who kindly pointed out the determination I have. Also how I stuck to lighter life milkshakes an soups for 3 months with out a bit of food to loose weight an how if I just put my head into it she knows eating food right enough to kee my body going I will loose the weight an keep it off. She was right. Iam young an I feel about 50 somtimes or more. I have no doubt let myself go since getting with my partner. From the clothes to the gallstones to my hair all over the place. From the 5 filling I need done to the teeth I want whiteing to the skin I need tanning. I have simply had enough this year Iam giving myself all the time beauty treatments rite food exercise everything I need. Its all about me an I care if thats selfish because its bin about bills pressure marriage love life health an everything else for this past few year an not once have I stepped up took on an carried on to look after myself. We only get one life I dont wanna remember mine as being on a diet all mylife fighting with my weight an feeing crap. I want to live every minuate to the full an I fully intend to do that this  year

Well this week has not been very good. I have been eating all sorts. Last night I had the worst gallstone attack of my life. I t was pure agony. I have to go see a surgent next thursday for a date to get them out. Iam scared to go in for the surgery but anything is better than this pain i have had on an off. I last weighed myself last thursday I was 15.2 which I was happy about but this week with the over eating the pain and pure depression of my partner under my feet all the time being out of work well i feel shit. I want this weight gone I have given myself 8 months to loose 5.7-6 stones I know I have high hopes but with hard work an determination I will do it an get my health good too meaning (gallstones out,fillings done,size at least12,happy healthy ). I need to get the women thats undernath waiting to gone out back. I have siad about looseing the weight getting my licence getting right with god getting myself everything i want an wannbe in life for the past few year. I have let these hopes dreams slide. I want this more than anything an this year I want to find the strength please god he gives it to me to do it. I dont have a mircle diet. I dont have a pocket full of willpower I dont like exercise to much but I am willing to do this. I am starting in the moring iam going to wake up have a breakfast an a evening meal at 5 o clock no more than 3 cups green tea for the day an lots warter. Iam going to do this till monday then carry on with an eating plan try to walk as much as possiable blog on here every day. I love tea an coffee so the reason only 3 cups greentea a day is trying to cut the caffieen to. NO FAD DIETS FAST WEIGHTLOSS IS NOT GREAT i know but please people cut me some slack support me just so i can get myself kicked into diet mode then i fully intend to carry on with somthing like slimming world healthy eating

Well last week i lost 6 pounds following a healthy diet broke it friday ate all weekend till yesterday last night had the worst gallstone attack ever i felt so bad till 12 o clock last night. i have to go in on the 3feb to see a surgent about getting them out sooner the better. so i am back on the diet trying to loose as much as possiable between now an the 3rd

HAD ENOUGH NOW IAM BACK AND FORTH IN MY MIND ABOUT SHOULD I GO BACK ON LIGHTER LIFE OR NOT UNTILL I HAVE THESE GALLSTONES TOOK OUT. I HAVE GOOGLED THE WHOLE INTERNET ABOUT IT AN THE TRUTH IS YES MABYE THE DIET AINT NO GOOD BUT ITS THE ONLY THING THATS HAS HELPED ME LOOSE WEIGHT I CANT STICK TO THESE 1 POUND A WEEK BREAK YOUR ASS AT THE GYM DIETS. I HAVE REALISED IM AN ALL OR NOTTING WOMEN. AN THE FACT IS I WILL PUT IT ALL BACK ON IF I START EATING LIKE AN ANIMAL AGAIN I KNOW IAM GOING TO HAVE TO BREAK MY ASS TO KEEP IT OFF. MY HEALTH WILL BE OK BECAUSE GOD LOOKS AFTER ME NOT DIET BUDDIES OR SLIMMING WORLD. THIS WEIGHT I HAVE HAD A FUCKING ENOUGH OF WAITING TO LIVE MY LIFE ANWITH IAM GOING TO GRAB IT WITH BOTH HANDS THIS YEAR AN THATS THE WAY IT HAS GOT TO BE. I HAVE PUT OFF THE THINGS I WANTED TO DO FOR SO LONG BECAUSE I WAS ASHAMED OF MY SIZE  I WANT A DRIVING A DRIVING LINCENCE THI YEAR I WANT TO BE 9S7LB AN I AM GOING TO BE WITH THE HELP OF GOD ALONE. THEIRS SO MANY THINGS IAM MISSING OUT ON WAITING TILL I GET SKINNY TO DO THEM WELL FUCK IT TAKE ME AS IAM OR GO THE FUCK AWAY. IAM GETTING UP IN THE MORING AN IAM GETTING BACK ON LIGHTER LIFE MY DECISION THE ONLY THING THAT HAS WORKED AN IAM BUSTING MY ASS FOR THIS FOR EVERYTHING AN IAM GOING BE HAPPY WITH ME JUST WATCH ME PRAISE GOD FOR GIVING ME THE STRENGTH AN BEING WITH ME THROUGH EVERYTHING AMEN

Well today got an appointment 3rd feb to see a surgent about having my gallstones looked at and taking out. Iam on slimming world lost 3half pound this week but iam debating to either stay on this or go on lighter life milkshakes to drop a stone fast for the operation they did say the less weight i had on me the better surgery less complication iam tourmented in the brain debating this help buddies???